Did i **** up my friendship?! *more than 5 answers please.?

Kay so people think fuckn my bestfriend is okay.. i love him always have always will he is just someone who will stay in my heart. We used to be together two years aqo.. we were realllllly wasted though and didnt know what we were doing.. i feel like we ruined what we have. What shud i do? Besides talk to him, i doubt we will